Self Love & Self Acceptance

He loved me in a way that made me feel empty

For a while I wondered whether that love was real

I kept telling him I needed more

I was like a dried up ocean and he was filling me up one cup at a time

I was restless, I needed more

I quickly realized that there were these spaces within me I had left for someone else to fill

It’s like I loved myself up to a certain point, and I needed his love to complete mine

I needed him to see me in places I didn’t see myself

I needed him to believe in me when I didn’t believe in myself

All those are lovely ideas, aren’t they?

To have him complete me, and me him

To call him my other half or better half...

But I am not half

I am grateful because his love shed light in these spaces I did not realize I had within me

I would not have known the miles I have to cover in my journey of self love and self acceptance

I would not have been able to love another unconditionally because I would always be pregnant with expectations

I want to be an ocean that gives, not one that swallows you whole and spits you out

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